I’ve been tired before but this is different. Coming home and going to sleep at 5pm is not really an option and even if it was I would still wake up the next day feeling tired. It’s not even that my brain is tired, oh no far from it, it’s my body! It’s a weird tired, one that causes me to have more frustration then I can even explain. I complain, I stomp my feet and I whine insistently about how tired I am to my hubby, my besties and my poor naturopath (she gets the bulk of my complaining). Seriously I’m 30 years old and I’ve thrown a full blown three-nager type tantrum because I’m so tired. I have lost almost all of my motivation and drive, which in turn pisses me off.
I know what you are all saying and my rational brain, when engaged, knows that it’s true. I’m healing. In the span of 2 years I’ve been poisoned by chemo, put under general anesthesia 4 times, basically been cut in half, radiated M-F for 5 weeks, parented a toddler, moved into our first home, worked over full time, done 1 year of infusions and am currently poisoning my body with multiple cancer drugs. So yes rationally I know I should be tired. That’s a lot for one body to handle, however, I feel like the time its taking to heal and get back my energy is far longer than expected and to be honest my passion, drive and career are suffering.
The common “healing” period for most surgeries is roughly 6-8 weeks. During that time the body is focusing all its energy on repairing the damage that was done by the surgery itself. Not to mention the work your liver is doing to help flush out all the medications and anesthesia from your body. I was only 20 weeks out from my DIEP Flap Reconstruction, which is an extremely intense and invasive surgery, when I went in for my reconstruction clean up and full hysterectomy. So yes my body has a lot of healing still to accomplish and my liver is working double time dealing with the surgical anesthesia as well as the cancer drugs I take daily.